Painfully Honest (’cause life is short, so why hold back?)

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If a story can punch you in the gut, this one wailed me smack dab in my abdomen. The below quote I relate to because I never could have imagined my life would turn out the way it has.

From the true story about a woman’s, named Immaculée, unbelievably heart-wrenching survival during the horrific Rwandan genocide in the mid 90s where she hid for months with several other women & girls in a tiny 3’X4′ bathroom –

“I came to learn that God never shows us something we aren’t ready to understand. Instead, He lets us see what we need to see, when we need to see it. He’ll wait until our eyes and hearts are open to Him, and then when we’re ready, He will plant our feet on the path that’s best for us . . . but it’s up to us to do the walking.”

I never in a million years pictured myself as an adult living still with MY PARENTS.

Even while fighting cancer, I never could’ve guessed debilitating side effects would unexpectedly just pop up to effectively add unimaginable hardships & stress  –

necessitating the use of a cane which I despise, inability to drive any longer, worsening dry eyes, a dry-as-cotton mouth, a constantly EXTREMELY messed up gut, a continually working bladder that won’t even stop at night to allow me much-needed restorative rest, not to mention the lost outta-sight energy –


Had I known everything that would happen to me at the beginning of my trials, I would’ve been way too overwhelmed to handle it all. But like Immaculee says, we’ll learn things as God sees fit.

God obviously knows what He’s doing because now that my life is playing out I can see exactly how this works for me & those around me. It’s not what I would’ve chosen, but I’m not The One in charge – & I better not forget it either!!

And who am I to whine about my circumstances when The One who gave me life is letting me

– & every person who believes in Him & accepts his lifesaving gift of salvation –

live eternally in paradise which means my gripes are merely temporary annoyances?



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