“If I Could Change My Life”

My life lost its plans when I was thirteen

And leukemia barged its way onto the scene.

If I could go back & have my way,

I’d erase in full my diagnosis day.

You don’t get to choose life’s direction: good, bad, happy, all messed.

But instead what’s thrown your way? Take & do your best.

How I would love to instantly eliminate

Things from my life, the list is great:

No cane, No health issues at all, No side effects holding me back,

Does anyone know I’m aware that a good life I lack?

Good would have meant no illness getting in my EVERY way,

So I could travel, be mobile, choose my duties each day.

I sit and I think and no pity parties are allowed,

For no one likes a pitiful presence in a crowd.

I’m a lot more bored than I would be if I could just even drive,

But hey, this is my drawn straw while I’m alive.

Though I’m done seeing my cancer doc, cancer effects I’ll always be warrin’,

Those who say “I wouldn’t change a thing about my life” – to me, that concept is foreign.

So don’t you dare tell me “it’s all good” – cuz it’s not.

Days drag out till the ending where I’ll love life a lot.

In the meantime, I’m not stupid, I know spiritual spins aren’t always the answer.

But I DO blame my life’s hardships not on God, but on cancer.

The End

By me last night on 7-25-17 amid “challenging” times

Thankfully my daily received Guideposts email today contained a quite relevant & most importantly, encouraging verse:

Be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead! 1 Peter 1:6

Linda Reagan NAILED it – Cheerfulness Trumps Sadness

“I’m okay. ” said nurse Linda Reagan just now on a rerun episode of “Blue Bloods” I saw while I’m folding fresh laundry. I dropped everything to repeat this imperative message which rings true for a lot of hospital patients, myself included.

Her follow-up remark echoes my attitude also. People suffering health crises (her character was shot) have absolutely

NO NEED 

for sad commiserating visitors.

Quite the opposite! Funny cheerful people make the best visitors – in addition to boosting your spirits, happy visitors lead to happiness which may help your body’s healing process:

“And I’m not gonna get any more okay with these long faces lookin’ at me.”

“Innocent Insult”

“Aunt Amy you know tigahs (tigers)?” he asked me from where he happily splashed & jumped in his light blue backyard pool. “Tigahs swim in wateh. They don’t have bathing suits.”

I was at my brother-in-law & sister’s house to play with their 4 children born in the order of boy, girl, boy, girl. The June summer day was sunny & hot, & we all relished the pleasantness of being outdoors.

I witnessed the energetic youngsters spraying the green hose, riding tricycles & scooters, & playing tag. What fun it was to be, during part of the playtime, the proverbial fly on the wall!

Before “teaching” me about giant cats, the 3-year-old was playing a Pokémon card contest against his older sister & brother on an L-shaped backyard couch. I saw that the trio of children all took their competition very seriously.

It therefore came as no surprise to hear my youngest nephew employ his pint-sized version of trash-talking. He couldn’t resist taking a shot at his big sis. The lad doesn’t actually know any bad words, but ignorance is bliss because he obviously thinks he does.

So the fired-up fella hurled to his sibling – to the best of his knowledge – his own brand of little boy bashing.

(However, I just don’t for the life of me know how offended, if at all, I would be if someone called me a term that combines both a common breakfast food & a run-of-the-mill body part.)

“You’re an egghead!”

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The End

By Aunt Amy
6.20.17

Epic Equation

Comfort food for lunch at “Tom+Chee”

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18-year friendship with Katie as we recognize our 1/2 birthdays

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Another reason to rejoice after learning of my completely clean bill of health this morning at my doctor appointment

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A Tiramisu cupcake for each of us

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1 huge reason all rolled into 1 to

CELEBRATE!

Katie on 7-17-17 my last dr app't with Dr. Yanik

I cannot believe this day. Pinch me!

 The Lord is my strength and my shield;
    my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.
My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.

Psalm 28:7

 Enter his gates with thanksgiving
    and his courts with praise;
    give thanks to him and praise his name.

Psalm 100:4